(eh i'll make this public...)

as much as i like Grey's Anatomy
their story lines are for shit...

i switched over to watching Law and Order:SVU
now that show is soooo good! completely addicted to it
a shame that i didn't watch it sooner.. 7 years later...

ok guys... i know i said this like... some odd months ago about making my journal "friends only"


so its friends only now.. so comment if u wanna join my buddy list to read about my very odd life!!

i swear... my entries are like chapters in a book...

life is a book...

this is a fucked up christmas... pretty much everyone knows what they are getting. especially in my family. "what do you want, what do you like" "i want this.. i want that" we all know what we got!!! which is stupid!! kinda ruins the whole x-mas spirit..

seriously i don't care about the presents!! i care about the food haha!! what are we eating tonight!? what are we doing tonight??

well i'll make the best of it.. MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS!!!! HOPE ALL OF YOU ENJOY THIS JOLLY DAY!!!!!!!

wow so i just got home.. got out of work at 12am!!!! and i have to be back there in.... less than 7 hours!!! just great!! for a long shift... at least the mall closes at 6pm.. on a saturday!! which is sweet!!! but still... fucking retail man!!

i should be resting now.. why?? because i'll be doing 16hours of work today!!! 8am to 11pm!!! crazy..... i know... fucking holidays.. i hate them...

what a weird day this was.... i woke up as if i had a hang over!!! i just didn't feel good..i didn't drink! i don't even remember what went on. it was all a dream to me. so weird.

work was fucking hectic... didn't get a break from anything... damn stupid people. until later that night like at fucking 10!! just one more week and its over!

it was weird just working... i dunno if its me being delusional... but half the customers that i was helping kept talking on and on to me.. which i don't mind.. some people are ok.. but most of them were just damn annoying! i got hit on by some of them.. a few actually slipped their numbers to me.. which was damn retarded.... i mean i am flattered but come on i get paid for being nice and making you spend your money.. that's all. it was funny though.. u just had to be there.

oh my buddha!!! i'm never gonna shop with my lil sis again!!!! it was horrible today!! i had a good day at work but after it... fucking a!!! my sis was being a smart ass. which fucking gets on my nerves. urgh!!!

i just wanted to finish up my x-mas list and be off to the grand opening... nope!!!! we shopped wicked late!!! everyone was taking their sweet ass time!! and now!! i have to go back to the mall on my day off next week to finish up my list!!!!! fuck my bitch ass sis and fuck x-mas!!!!!!!!!!!!!

urgh!!! i'm sooo fucking madd!!!!!!!!!!

oh my buddha!! i'm avoiding Jesse (just for today)... he's really ontop of this shit with me moving to Chicago. it's all a rush. i am going to Chicago no doubt about that. but the timing is too soon. next month?? thats way to soon not to mention i haven't heard any news from my District Manager about an opening at KFL over there.

ah.. i gotta tell him i want to move in spring. it'll be a lot easier.

this kinda sucks though because i was planning on going back to school in January....

so on friday! my co-workers got me a very cute gift!!! my first pipe!!! and some weed with it!!! that night... shiiiiit got high with my friends with it!!!! hahahaha!!!!

saturday!!! spent it with my sisters!!!!! went shopping for x-mas and my b-day!!! then to the cheesecake factory!!!! the wait was long but it was soooo worth it!!! the foood was sooooo good!!!! our waitress was pretty cool too!! and the other waitresses!! two of the hostesses were freakin' hilarious!!!! one guy was modeling a purse for us!! the another one was being very clumsy!!! she was cute and the guy too!! so!!! my sisters and i really bonded!!! no fights just joking around and shit!! it was really nice it made my birthday!!! i loved every minute with them. yes i do love my freakin' sisters!!!

sunday my offical birthday!!! well i worked in the morning. pretty funny morning. then went home, took a nap with Sarah!!! hhaha and the party was on!!!! got wasted with the person who promised to get wasted with me!!! you know who you issss!!! it was soooo fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! everyone was having a great time!!! it wasn't just the alcohol that made it. we just know how to have fun!!!! that was the best part!!!!! pictures were taken... so that would say it all!!! i'll post it up later!

OK!!!! THANKS EVERYONE FOR WISHING ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!! IT REALLY MADE MY BIRTHDAY EXTRA SPECIAL DESPITE BEING 21!! I HEART YOU!!! GOSH... I'M ABOUT TO CRY NOW!!! HAPPY TEARS!! YAY!!

ok more to update but i'm gonna start this off since 30mins ago i turned 21. i'm sooo!!!! EXCITED!!! I GET TO BUY MY OWN DRINKS NOW!!! but i feel weird... i don't feel 21 to be honest.. am i suppose to feel this way??? oh well!! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! I'VE BEEN BREATHING FOR 21 FUCKING YEARS!!! wow... yikes

my decision is... i'm going to Chicago. yup. i don't know what to expect to be honest and i am nervous.

i gave my car to my sister. well i'm still driving it until i leave which would be february hopefully in mid february. even though Jesse wants me in January. which we still gotta talk about that. lol

the VS fashion show was sooo awesome!!! i loved every minute of it!!!! ahhh!!! i took the night off from work just to watch it!!! shitt! it was sooo worth it!!! the models were goddesses!! and Alessandra!! to die for!! ok now

wow my birthday is almost here. can't wait for that! saturday i'm spending it with my sisters. its a traditional thing now!! a family picture first then out to eat at the cheesecake factory. yay!! saturday!! getting trash with my friends!!! sunday my offical birthday!!! is with my friends and we're gonna eat somewhere... still undecided and oh!! i'll be getting my tattoo!!!

Jesse called about more information about the moving situation..... well... i dunno what to say but i do have an awnser...

fuck the car insurance companies!! i just had to get that out...

i really hate the holidays..... seriously!!! why do we even have them??? its a scandle!!! like everything else.

fuck... i'm sooo stressed out right now... i was not in a good mood at work. i flipped out on my employee.. ooops.. gosh i'm so horrible!!! i really am a strict assistant manager. omg!!! i don't want to be one!! its just the holidays are getting to me.

the weather is getting to me!!! i need to talk to someone!!! why am i like this???

so Jesse gives me a call like at 5 in the morning lol sweeet voicemail but too fucking early.. so i called back later on that day. some good news!!!! he wants me to move to Chicago. since there might be a room for me. he wants to kick his roomate out. cool for me!

we're still planning this out.. i dunno if its gonna go through. if it does... he'll come back here to move all my stuff there. awe what a friend!!! but i dunno... all my friends are here. but i don't have anything to look back besides them and my family. i love chicago!!! but i love it here too. i dunno what to do but i have a short time to think about it. hopefully tl spring.

however if the plan goes well. i think i'm gonna move to chicago. thats my decision for now.

right so my birthday is coming up!!!! can't wait. i'm gonna get a tattoo!! i know i know i should've gotten one when i was 18!! but i just wasn't ready and now i am.. however i'm not ready to be 21 yet which is weird.... just the age... the drinks and bars are fine with me!!!!! anyways my tattoo!!! well its gonna be below my wrist. i think i'm gonna get my zodiac sign. alright thats all for now!

last night was fun!! had my sis, friends and co-workers all in one club!!! u know there was a lot of cute girls and guys there!!! ok not a lot but a good amount!!! Thuan and Welley came!! just like old times!! i missed being in the club with them! lol my sis came hahahahaha we're like the veronicas i have to say!

the tripod!!! uhh... Narin was drunk and danced her way out!! like no other!!!! and poor Navy was a victim of hers.

and with Sony and Nora.. i just wasn't "there" with them hahahahahaha on and off i was. heheheh Nora!! "the porn/strip dance!!"

Jill and a few people from the mall came!! though they didn't dance.. suckers!! but it was nice seeing them!

fun fun night!!

my lil sis and i have been hanging out a lot. weird... but its nice. its cool!! we work in the same mall and such ha.. very weird.

well everything is going pretty good. work is on and off. still a pain but i like it a lot better now.


i'm moving on hahahahaha nothing new. it was bound to happen. so yeah there is another girl. but she's really a stranger to me. i've seen her twice. she's really cute!! works at Newbury Comics. i didn't think i would see her today.. i was just determined to find the veronicas cd. where is it!? i dunno is it even out yet!?

right so i was just browsing and i see the girl walking by me smiling. holy shit it WAS THE GIRL!! she's really cute.

on with the day.. i'm at home now obviously and Navy is on my futon talking on her sidekick! and Sarah is being a lesbian!

riiiiiiiiight!! i'm gonna stop with the green stuff.. its mad good but its making me sick. just until i get well again ha!!

so yeah.. i smoked it and i burnt my throat. so i've been struggling to talk! for real man!! talking to customers was like talking english for the first time! work was a bitch!! even more bitchy when my voice was dying on me!! and i caught a cold..

guys... late night driving is fun.. but not in the cold!! i've been sick for a while.. this past week actually... damnnnnnnnnnn!!!

damn!! the veronicas are sooo hott!!! now i regret for missing their concert in Boston... what the fuck!!! now i'm getting into them more and more!!! i gotta find a poster of them and get their cd!!!

yes!!! ok i'm fine now!!